When you just "want out!"

When you just “want out!”

Have you ever felt like you are in a whirlwind of chaos when things just seem to blow up on every side? I have been in that whirlwind at home and at work for the last 6 weeks and there are times when I just want out of the overwhelm! I want resolution to happen quickly, to happen right now!

On the work front, early September brought the unexpected news about Amazon clearing out 2 years of books from their warehouses, returning 900+ Redemption Press books — a very small percentage of the 3 million books returned to our distributor, but it was a lot to us! This selfish act on their part resulted in extreme chaos as we endeavored to make sense of it all. As the facts came together, we found out Amazon is being sued by the FTC and the distributor for unethical business practices and more, so it really was as bad as I thought, maybe even worse.

However, the effect it had on us, as a business, was immediate focus on how we can protect our authors from this type of abuse in the future, and with that came countless hours of time studying the details, with multiple team members having to be redirected to “fight this fire.”

As I prayed that God would expose any weakness in our procedures as we began to dig deep into this area, He answered that prayer in astounding ways. As much as I wanted out of the chaos, I never would have discovered these two significant weaknesses without it.

In my quiet time, these words leapt off the page at me and were just what I needed to hear.

October 6: We Want Out

Ezekiel 14:1–15:8; Revelation 5:1–14; Job 33:29–33

We’ve all had those moments when we just want out, when the chaos of life seems overwhelming. We want an end to the struggle with sin. We want relief from the things that are part of living in a broken world. We know Christ reigns, but we want what is “after these things” (Rev 4:1) right now…

He is responsible for setting all things right. This knowledge is incredibly comforting for us. God is the great chaos-fighter. Jesus has drawn us out of our own chaos with His sacrifice. He will help us live in the now—in a world that is often chaotic but will, in time, be set right. In the meantime, we can respond to His work of ordering our lives and the lives of those around us. And when we feel helpless and out of control, we can rely on the great chaos-fighter.

Are you frustrated with your life circumstances? How can you approach difficult areas of your life knowing God will set all things right? How can you rest knowing Christ is at work, right now, in your life?

Rebecca Van Noord[1]

As I read this devotion, still neck deep in the crisis, the Holy Spirit pricked my heart and I had to admit, yes, I know Christ reigns, but I wanted what is “after THIS thing” right now!

I needed to be reminded that He is sovereign, and when I feel helpless and out of control, I can rely on the great chaos-fighter! He indeed is ordering my life and the lives of those around me. And He WILL help me live in the now.

Right before reading that devotion and writing it down in my journal, I jotted this scripture I pondered for a bit:

Now to Him who is able to keep you from stumbling, and to present you unblemished in His glorious presence, with great joy – to the only God our Savior be glory, majesty, dominion and authority through Jesus Christ our Lord, before all time and now and for all eternity, Amen. Jude 24-25.

Yes…He is able and willing to keep me from stumbling … and I praise God for that! In fact, as I think about it, I’m kind of excited to see how God works all things together for good to glorify His name in all of it.

So have you found yourself in a similar place, trying to keep your balance in the chaos as it rocks your world? What are you asking to happen right now? Have you been encouraged in that place? How?

Thanks for hanging out with me today!

[1] John D. Barry and Rebecca Kruyswijk, Connect the Testaments: A One-Year Daily Devotional with Bible Reading Plan (Bellingham, WA: Lexham Press, 2012).

Athena Dean Holtz
Welcome, I'm Athena!

I start each day by tithing the first hour to the Lord in prayer, reading the word, doing word studies of the Text, and asking God how I can live out what I am reading. This time is usually met with meditation on devotionals that are usually written by dead guys like Oswald Chambers, CS Lewis, Charles Spurgeon, AW Tozer, and Andrew Murray.

Right now, I’m reading a daily devotional with a friend called Tozer on the Almighty God for my focus for the day. It's fun to see individually what pulls us in to spur one another on to good deeds!

The Bible is filled with action steps to walk out in practical and intentional ways. This sets my day in motion to walk it out! I hope this is your heart, too.

Consider this a personal invitation to join me in this journey!

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