How do you write a blog to encourage others when you are struggling yourself?
How do you, when the storm is blowing around you and the idea of trusting Him to rescue you feels, well, almost impossible … how can you possibly find the words He would have you say?
How do you pull yourself out of an inward focus of trying to figure out what the lesson is, where you went wrong or even how you could have avoided it, long enough to consider what Jesus wants to say to someone else?
How do you see the path you are to take when so many thoughts are going so many different directions ping ponging off the edges of my mind with “What if?” “If only…” “Maybe I should have…” and “How did I miss that?”
I think the only way is to do what Asaph did in a similar situation. In Psalm 77 he struggled, he voiced his despair, his feelings that God was no longer listening to him. On the heels of declaring that God had turned His back on him, he remembered…
But then I recall all you have done, O Lord;
I remember your wonderful deeds of long ago.
They are constantly in my thoughts.
I cannot stop thinking about your mighty works.
O God, your ways are holy.
Is there any god as mighty as you?
You are the God of great wonders!
You demonstrate your awesome power among the nations.
By your strong arm, you redeemed your people,
the descendants of Jacob and Joseph.
Yes, he remembered, and declared the truth about his God. Even in the middle of his doubts, his confusion, his fear.
And that is the perfect example for me today.
As I struggle with what feels to me like deep trouble, I can choose to zoom out, and remember all that He has done. And that’s when my heart overflows with gratefulness, in the midst of my storm. The peace that passes understanding that guards my heart and mind in Christ Jesus comes. And I can think clearly. I can think of others.
And so, I guess I’ve answered my question. As I sat down to write, and had no idea what He wanted me to say, I asked an honest question, and He gave me His answer.
Now that’s a faithful God. Who can use my struggles, doubts, and fears to glorify His Name.
Thank You, Lord.