The World’s Redemption
I was scheduled to attend a leadership training session in Palm Springs for the high-tech company with which I was working. By this time, I knew the Lord didn’t want me involved in any way at all, but I couldn’t get out of the commitment because the company had paid my way.
As I sat in the back of the room during the final phase of the training, I felt sick to my stomach. I clearly understood the abomination of the business methods that I had involved myself with. Each leader was to stand up in the front of the rest of the room and practice his or her inspirational speech on the audience. Then we were to go back out to our teams and motivate them to greater achievements in the months to come. Of course, this would result in more income for us.
It was Sunday morning and I was keenly aware that I was not in church worshpping, but in a room full of people, many of them Christians, who were worshiping the almighty dollar. Feeling disconnected, I watched and listened to a former pastor stand up and “share his heart.”
“This is the most incredible opportunity you will ever have a chance to be a part of, he said. This is a chance for you to make your dreams come true! We are at a place in time that is like none other. You cannot afford to let this chance pass you by. It could, and literally will, change your whole life. I want to look back and be able to tell my grandchildren that I made a difference in this world. With this company, I’ll be able to say that with conviction and honesty. And you can, too! Don’t wait. Don’t delay. Don’t drag your feet, because this trains a-movin’ and you won’t want to be left behind!”
If I didn’t know any better, I think he was preaching to the faithful. He was preaching, but it was the world’s redemption, fame, fortune and success. I stayed in the back row and let one of the other leaders from our group do the speech for us. I felt sick and shrank down in my chair and prayed it would be over quickly. Running through my head was my prayer to the Lord, Oh God, forgive us for being so deceived!
Yes, it all came crashing down. My successful ways of doing business, my standard operating procedure that had made us thousands upon thousands of dollars, was exposed by the holiness of God. I knew then that there was no going back. No matter what our financial condition, I never again wanted anything in my life that was not God’s perfect will. I had lived my life with one good idea after another, and many of them paid off. But just because they made money, where they God’s ideas for my life ? Where they God’s idea for the others I got involved? Again, that scripture crashed through my mind, There is a way that seems right to a man, but its end is the way of death. (Proverbs 14:12).
I can now see clearly that just because a door was opened to me didn’t mean I was supposed to walk through it. Because I didn’t commit it to prayer and wait for confirmation and peace, seeking godly counsel from those to whom I was countable, I was wide open for deception. And deceived I was. Those three years of disobedience almost cost me my marriage, my children, my spiritual life, my integrity. But Praise God, His mercies are new every morning.
If we say we have fellowship with Him, and walk in darkness, we lie and do not practice the truth. But if we walk in the light as He is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus Christ His Son cleanses us from all sin. If we say we have no sin, we deceive ourselves, and the truth is not in us. If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and cleanse us from all unrighteousness (1 John 1:6-9).